No hope left

 I honestly wish I was dead there is no hope for me I hope my children will be okay. I just want to die I hate this world I hate living 

I hate living it is what it is

 I hate life I hate living 

Living hurts I am broken beyond repair

One day I will post my outfits again and get back to fashion and dancing but right now the past few months I don’t even want to live. I cry everyday I wake up but it’s not like before this time I truly have no hope left. I wish there was a magic pill I could take to not remember how life is. I don’t want to write anymore so I will stop. I know I’m supposed to say it gets better stay strong but it just seems to get worse. I am in so much pain I don’t want to be here anymore because that’s how I feel. And why stay here and accomplish or enjoy when death is the end goal. I am broken beyond repair living hurts. Peace 

This is me Monday July 6,2026 

I don’t want to be here anymore but afraid to leave

 I have to get this out somehow I don’t have a formal way of saying how I have been. I don’t plan on harming myself but I don’t want to be here anymore. I feel so depressed I don’t think it can compare to anything I have felt before. Living feels painful. I don’t want to talk about anything that happened to me. I just want to go back to how it was before. I was hurt and in pain but at least I had a will to live. I feel afraid no one can help me. The scariest part is not being able to help my children. I’m disconnected from myself and everything around me. I don’t see a point in living if we all just die and I’m also afraid to die. I have felt this way before when I was threatened by two different men and I had stress from my family but it eventually went away or I just smoked so much weed that I forgot about it. I was recently triggered by horrible events and I can’t seem to shake this. I have two children and I feel like this will never end. I am in so much pain but I don’t want sympathy I just want to be myself again. I feel like part of my brain is gone. I am advocating for myself but I am tired. 

This photo was taken in 2024 I believe or 2023 I am wearing a vintage thrifted blue dress.

New post soon

 Hello you guys I am planning to make a post soon.well a couple of posts 

Thank you 

ERIKA ANN MARIE RANDOLPH WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN

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Fashion Shows and more

Hello ! I wonder how many followers I have left, I've been so busy with school and work that I didn't have much time to post on here.

I recently did the Naturally Glam Fashion Show in Norfolk and I showed some pieces for Resort or Spring Wear 2013 :)

I also took some photos myself of the pieces just this past Saturday 

Models: Tia and Tymara Austin Edwards 

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